Today I took my baby boys to register for Senior year which was very emotional.  Life goes on in the midst of all the chaos.  Ken had his lasor surgery today and all went well.  He doesn't go back to the eye specialist until November to see if it worked.  The doctor added another blood pressure medication which seems to finally have things under control.  His current pill count is up to 14 per day and he has no idea what he takes haha.  His biggest worry currently is that the chemo has turned his facial hair white.  He is grieving a bit but I keep telling him that if his hair turns white maybe he can get a senior citizen discount. I'm always looking for the silver lining.

Sometimes during the day I forget the word cancer.  Then there are times like the other morning when things were so crazy and I thought to myself I can't even say well at least we are all healthy.  But then in the same moment of self pity I thought but at least everyone is still here and we are a family. There are so many people  alone in this world.  Ken and I talk nightly about how this experience has shown us how loved we are by so many people. 

Mom begins chemo on Thursday.  She is very nervous  I keep assuring her we will make it through.  We are strong!  I have always believed there is a God and my faith has been stronger at different points during my life but I have to say that I could not function daily without faith.  Faith that someone is there holding me up and giving me the ability to stay strong for everyone else.  I wonder why I am being given so much to deal with then I realize it's because I have been given so much. I have a wonderful husband, children, family and friends.  You know who you are and I love you dearly for the texts, phone calls, cards, meals, childcare, shopping etc.

Ca Va Bien,
Christina